Freakish..am I?

Oh My God!

Yesterday, i feel positive about everything, the mood, the face, the times, everything. I felt great yesterday, the time i thought i really had something that i can rely on, some friends...no, not some, few friends. This is the thing that i blame everyday and every second in my life, my self. I don't know really what makes me feel like this, is it wrong to feel sensitive about my surrounding? Is it me or they just blaming it all to me? What is wrong with me?

I had this little hope that someday i can change and be with everybody again, only one question, who is everybody? which everybody? They are all avoiding me, something is really wrong with me. What did i do? Something's wrong? Tell me! Now, i really want someone tell me what is wrong with me! Why do i look like a goddamn freak in your eyes? Tell me!

I'm just too sensitive, i think that explains. Screw it, i don't know what do i have to do...oh! I think i know, please people. Yes, that is what i am going to do next, please people so they won't think that i am a loser.

You know, i'm just a normal girl...i laugh, i talk, i communicate, i cry, i need to socialize, i need people, and i feel. Why do they have to act that i will be fine all the time? I have feelings, as****e! I can't hold it all in! I have limits, you know! Sometimes i just swear all of those people to disappear, get lost, or maybe die. And it goes otherwise too, i just swear that i die, so i don't have to feel this kind of feelings anymore. I can't take this pressure for too long now, unless i don't have feelings anymore. It is tiring, it's goddamn tiring.

Now, tell me anything that can make me feel better...or worse.